Take It or Leave It

Oh god, I’m gonna have to hold back so everyone doesn’t hate me. I can’t stand my generation. Between the drugs and alcohol most people get into and partying all the time, most people are wasting their time. Thank god I realized how important school is at a very young age, but most of my peers have yet to come to that realization. I worry more about getting A’s then a lot of kids do about passing. Eventually the bull shit will catch up with them though, and they’ll realize how big of a hole they’ve dug themselves into. It really makes me wonder what the world will be like in a few years when the people I’ve met in college are out in the real world. It’s a very scary thought.

And what gets me even more is how all the girls love these dumbass “bad boys” who don’t give a fuck about anything in life, including the girls. I’m a nice guy, I respect other people and I have a very outgoing personality, but that’s the opposite of what girls seem to want. I can’t count how many times adults have said “oh girls must be falling for you, you’re such a gentleman.” In reality, life is quite the opposite. It makes me wonder what could have changed so much between their generation and mine. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not whining; I like who I am and that’s not going to change. I’m just curious how generations could be so different and why many people my age don’t seem to care about their future.

I am Jakob, I’ve spent my entire life in Southern California, I have blonde curly hair that a lot of people seem to like, I wear round Harry Potter Glasses, I’m about 5’10”, I like to think I’m in somewhat good shape but I could definitely stand to lose some weight.  My wardrobe consists of nothing but shorts and band shirts. 

I’ve never moved in my life, so I attended the same school from fourth grade through high school. In high school I played football, basketball, and baseball and was all league in all three.  I was even all CIF in baseball and led the county in steals except for one kid who played 20 more games than me and beat me by one.  I’ve also played the trombone for 8 years.  I had the chance to join drama for a semester and that was a lot of fun.  I wish I could do more performances (my dad says I’m a natural, but he’s biased), but I like doing fun performances rather than serious Shakespeare stuff.  However, academics were always my main focus.  I wanted to be Valedictorian ever since fourth grade, and I was able to attain that goal nine years later.  Between my academics and extra curricular activities, I earned a Presidential Scholarship at California State University, Long Beach.  I’m really proud of myself for getting the scholarship, but I didn’t really want it for myself.  In reality, I wanted it for my parents: they did everything they could to make sure I had the best education possible and always supported me in any way they could.  The scholarship was the only way I felt I could repay them.

So now I’m a sophomore in college.  I’m studing Mechanical Engineering and hope to one day become an Imagineer for Disneyland.  My dream is to have a noticeable, visible effect on the park that I can point out any time I visit.  On that note, I’m an absolute Disney fanatic.  I love watching the classic movies and visiting Disneyland as often as possible.

I don’t really know how else to describe myself.  I can be shy around new people but I’m loud and obnoxious with my friends.  I love to make people laugh, it’s my way of seeing whether or not they like me.  That’s about all I can think of.  If there’s anything I didn’t cover and you’re dying to know about, feel free to ask.

I love my friends.  I find that their numbers fluctuate at times, but the ones that stick around really mean a lot to me.  There also aren’t a lot of them, but I want the friends in my life to actually mean something to me rather than just be someone to do stuff with.  One of my biggest fears is that I don’t really reach out to my friends, or that I focus on the one’s that I’m talking to most.  I appreciate every single one of my friends

While everyone has today off and gets to enjoy a great summer’s day, I have work and it’s gonna be crazier than ever.  But I do have plans for this evening, I just have to survive the day first.

I don’t know what exactly this means - is it like a quote, or my actual favorite words?

I’ll do both, just for kicks.

First is my favorite word, onomatopoeia - the formation of words by imitating sounds.  Examples of this are a flybuzzingaround the room or a potclangingagainst the floor.  I love this word because it sounds so sophisticated but stands for something we all start doing at a very young age.  Plus a lot of people don’t know about it so I get to explain what it means :D

The actual words I live by are “Never, Never, Never Quit” - Winston Churchill.  This quote reminds me of the things I was able to do in life by continuing to push myself, even when I thought my goal was unattainable.  I continue to apply this quote to my life and see it taking affect in other places, like college and work.  I was able to get an A in two classes I thought I would barely pass, and I was 1 of 5 people hired out of 150 applicants.  This quote has pushed me to strive for my best, and don’t don’t intend on stopping anytime soon.

Your admiration for a person, idea or organization becomes much more important today — and may lead to a new job, a new relationship or something even bigger and better! Move toward the future.

Interesting, nothing has really happened today.  I don’t really believe in horoscopes either; to me they seem like broad descriptions of an event that you try to notice or work into your life.  While exciting, I have not noticed any of these reatical changes today.

Getting into some serious questions here.  When I really think about this one, I find that a lot of the people that are very close to me have hurt me in a big way in my life.  I’m not going to go naming names and putting my friends on blast (even though about 1 person will read this), but it kind of shows who I am.  I am quick to trust the first time around.  If that blows up in my face, I usually end up really mad but eventually forgive the person if I care about them.  If they fuck me over again, I usually keep them out of my life.  However, if they come back and want to mend the friendship, I will let them get close to me but it takes awhile to fully regain my trust

Poor but attractive.  I don’t believe looks are the deciding factor in liking someone, but you have to at least be attracted to them.  Plus being rich can not only change who you are, but being rich doesn’t mean you’re smart, hard working, dedicated, or any other positive descriptive word.  It’s easy to be born into money or get lucky with a business venture, and there’s a lot less pressure when the person you’re with doesn’t expect you to buy them the world

Outside of tumblr, there are a few groups of people I like to hang out with.  First there’s Grace - we watch Disney movies and go to Disneyland.  Then there’s Rachel - we also go to Disneyland, go to the movies, study, and talk about life.  Then there’s Joshio, my best friend since the summer before fourth grade - he brings out the total nerd in me, and we always find games to play together.  Then there’s a group I go bowling with and out to dinner with on Fridays; I met an old high school friend at college and we started hanging out about a year ago.  Then there’s my cousin Katie.  Growing up she was practically my sister, and now we enjoy doing just about anything together.  Other than these people, I love meeting new friends and going to Disneyland with just about anyone, so feel free to hit me up!